It’s been a while 😉
I’ve been meaning to write this post for a few months now….continually shuffling it around on my ‘to do’ list. Right now it is about 3 am and I have been up for about two hours now. Sleep is elusive.
I went to my spot and sat there talking to God. Asking Him why I haven’t been consistent with some of my responsibilities and why keeping up the momentum to keep on being productive is so hard? I even shed a few tears. God simply said “You already have the tools.”
Don’t you just love Him? You don’t get anything else until you complete that last thing.
So, I wiped my face, virtual pen in hand and now listening to the taps of my key board while my people are sleeping. Determined to cross this off the list.
On June 17th we welcomed to our family the sweetest baby boy 🙂 He came promptly on his due date, which just happened to be my mother’s birthday (wonderful gift 🙂 ) and he is my father’s name sake. There is a 13 year gap between him and his sister so this felt like a new and not merely different experience.
Here are 5 things I’ve learned from his birth and since….
I didn’t realize my ‘relax’ button was broken. I was always on the go, and in some days, there didn’t seem to be enough hours. The family was a responsibility. Working as a homicide detective was a constant grind and consuming. Church was active. And so it rotated. Before having the baby I decided to take four months off from work. Neither I nor my husband thought I’d make it past two. Well, can I say I enjoyed every single day of my four months? So much so that I didn’t want to go back to work. It was like a life detox. All other responsibilities got done without me and I ENJOYED my family!!!!! My priorities slowly shifted and I took control of my clock and calendar!
My husband who is quite the opposite of me, bought me massages and ensured that we went away for our anniversary; minus our then two month old. So I have kept that up, implementing more ‘self care’ activities on my calendar.
Have you realized how easy it for us to complain about a situation rather than find the pieces to be thankful about? It’s really conditioned in us. When I look at my baby boy, as soon as his eyes open he has the biggest smile on his face. As if to say ‘Another day? Thank you!” I pray he never loses that. I strive to see the glass as half full and have even taken to writing in my gratitude journal. Don’t we all have so much to be thankful for?
3. NO FEAR
As I watch Jason and see how he approaches everything with wonderment and reckless abandon, I wonder how it is as we grow we lose that. I know it’s through a myriad of life experiences. But I still wonder at it. As his father, sister and I hover to make sure he doesn’t get hurt and is encouraged to keep exploring, isn’t that what God does for us? However, despite our best attempts, Jason has bumped his head, fallen, and hit himself with his own toys, but he still keeps going. We, on the other hand, allow fear to stop us, instead of doing it afraid.
In spite of past hurts and disappointments, let’s be determined to thoroughly explore the hand we’ve been dealt!
For the past month Jason has been crawling, pulling himself up and walking from side to side while holding on. About a week ago, he started standing up and letting go. He lasts for a hot second and then he drops. He has been doing it over and over again and now lasts for about 2-3 seconds. As I was watching him I wondered how does he know to ‘want’ to do the next thing? Now that I can sit up, I don’t want to lie down. Now that I can crawl, I don’t want to just sit. Now that I can stand, I don’t want to just crawl. Now that I can walk, I don’t want to just stand….
God’s expectation for us is just the same. We should be ‘forever learners’. Willing to seek out and be in environments and around people who challenge us to grow continually. Only then can we maximize everything God had in mind for us when He formed each of us 🙂
Hmmm, babies are dripping with love 🙂 This is my favorite and I saved it for last. I cannot tell how many times I’ve heard ‘this baby has really changed you’. And I usually think ‘what kind of force was I before?’
The whole pregnancy, natural birth, and subsequent, has shown me so many more angles and aspects of love. The first is to be loving and patient with others, especially in ministry. Just as I am loving and patient with Jason, not expecting him to do more than a baby does, so must I treat others that are babes in Christ (natural age doesn’t matter).
Loving me. Taking time to do #1 and realizing that I am a limited resource and taking care of my temple is paramount, because that’s the only one that I have and it is the vehicle by which I can complete all that God has given me to do!
Loving and treasuring my family. My kids are growing so fast, I don’t want to miss a thing!
Love is everything. What charge can one bring against love?
Until next week.