Do you find yourself dwelling on the past?
Thinking about it…….
Talking about it……
Dwelling on it…..
Stewing about it…..?
Whatever we give attention to, we are giving energy to. We are giving past situations, past hurts, past feelings, past failures, past disappointments, and past grudges, life.
We regurgitate it: throw it up and then eat it again…..over and over again. We won’t let it die, we won’t let ourselves get over it. And most times when we do this it is when we believe we are right. And we may be right, BUT, we retard our progress when we cannot move beyond what happened.
Can I say that this sneaks up on us sometimes? Our lives are going in the direction we are looking and we don’t realize which way we are looking (past or future), until we start monitoring what we are saying. After all, our mouths speak out of the abundance of our hearts.
Listen to what you talk about, what you rage about, what you complain about!
About two weeks ago, I actually went home from work and realized that I complained about everything that day. I have been waiting for my work assignment to change and because it is taking way longer than is typical, it impacted my attitude. I said to myself “uh no ma’am, you need to pull this together!”. So I got out a journal and wrote a whole page of gratitude. I immediately felt better. I decided that I would do it for 30 days, or longer, and challenged myself to not complain about ANYTHING. About traffic, the weather, food, work, people, family, church……NOTHING!
I realized how easy or natural it is for us to slip into that negative space, that negative place in our heads unless we have something intentionally in place to point us to ALL that we have to be THANKFUL for.
So monitor your thoughts and words and see in which direction they are driving you……..
Have a blessed week!
Today for my weekly post I was fairly sure I knew what I was going to write about. That is, until I happen to log into Facebook. As I was scrolling through I came across the news that a high school mate had passed.
As a homicide detective, I deal with death in some way or form almost everyday. But I felt a little shock on finding this out……a light gone out of childhood eyes😦
Someone summed up my feelings accurately “As children we never really expect to die”
Sitting at my desk I felt this sobering nervous dread because time is really going by. You know that feeling when someone passes who was close to your age?
Time waits on no man or woman…..so
Love while you still can…
Forgive while you still can…
Serve while you still can…
Live on purpose while you still can…
Find out who YOU are while you still can……AND
Be the best YOU while you still can…..
Is God enough? How dare I ask such a question?
We are studying a new book for bible study and it is on WORSHIP.
Worship being ‘anything we value or ascribe worth to’.
We are really getting to the bottom of ‘what’ or ‘who’ we worship. We may all say that we are worshiping God, but in actuality when we take a look at where the bulk of our time, money, energy and attention goes…….we may come to another conclusion.
Some of us worship our families, our jobs, our possessions and ourSELVES.
Last week, in the book, we got to discussing Psalm 16. In it David is talking about his trust and security in God. He is thoroughly satisfied to dwell IN God. Choosing to experience pleasures found with God rather than elsewhere.
But what happens when we don’t feel like God is enough, because we’ve had so many pleasurable experiences ‘outside’ of God? I’m not just talking about sexual experiences, I’m talking about those of us that are foodies/gluttonous, shopaholics, selfish, vain, lazy etc…….even those of us who are workaholics.
I really got to thinking about it. Even though most of us would not outright say that God is not enough, I would argue that our actions say it.
I’ll pick one thing……unforgiveness.
When we hold on to unforgiveness, we choose something that pleasures us and not what pleasures God. Are we saying that God is not ‘enough’ to handle the wrong (s) done against us? Perhaps we are…..
Anyway, just the words in my thinking cap for today. We are all somewhere in the process of being more like Christ.
Have a great week!
This has been my area of improvement for a long time. Juggling the many hats I wear is a challenge. But I can say that when I took control of my clock and calendar, and became more intentional about what balance meant for me, I began to see results.
I’ve been wanting to make sure that I produced a blog every Monday. But for the longest I hesitated because I wasn’t sure I’d have something to write about every Monday. After some wise counsel from my pastor who reminded me that if I set some time aside to ask God what He wanted me to write about, He will give it to me.
So I created a note section on my phone entitled ‘blog’ and I asked😉 Well, He started giving me titles and stories and now it’s up to me to be consistent…..
Anyways, back to the balance thing. We are fresh back from family vacation/spring break and it was so relaxing
I lurked for the sun every morning, slept with the balcony door open to hear the waves, enjoyed our away time and especially enjoyed watching my water babies have fun…
I have always loved the morning. Maybe because of it’s clean undisturbed freshness or the hint of promise everyday brings, I don’t know, but I love it!
Most of my mornings were also spent trying not to share my writing materials with this little early bird
My daughter has always been a water lover and now her brother has followed suit. So it was a pleasure to watch them…
We had a refreshing time and baby boy and I took in a few more sights as baby girl and dad went off to see Batman vs Superman…
Had a great time and am looking forward to the next. I do believe baby Jason had the most fun time of all
Have a great week and I pray you are doing all you can to ensure your life is balanced.
Do you remember throughout your life journey people ‘seeing’ promise and gifts and talents and destiny in you before you ever saw it in yourself? Or rather, before you ever admitted it to yourself?
Things like; ‘your life story is so awesome, you should put it in a book’,
‘your fashion sense is so instinctive you should do something with that’,
‘you make the best cakes or pies or ice cream or whatever, I would totally pay for it’,
‘when are you going to preach?’
‘you are so good with kids’
‘you are so creative, you should do interior design’
I don’t know what your thing is, but I am sure if you took a second to pause and look at the bread crumbs left throughout your life you will see a pattern in your proclivities.
If you are already pursing them, praise God!!
But if not, take that step…write that business plan (again)….
enroll in school….
get that certificate…..
read some books…
find a mentor….
take that sewing class…
take that photography class…
There are so many people waiting for you to serve what only you can serve!
The other day I woke up and commanded my morning that I would have a productive day. Would you know that Satan jumped all over it? I mean all morning I felt like I was wading through molasses!
Around noon I went down to the gym, as I had mapped out for the day, determined to press through. Finished my work out, showered up and was heading upstairs when I ran into a fellow officer. A friend had recently told me that he was in seminary so I stopped to chat. Mind you, I have seen him many times over the years and even worked a case with him, but never knew this.
There are so many servants all around us, we are really not alone in our pursuit for God.
Anyway, we talked for about an hour or so and he told me a quick story that exemplifies the point that I was making in the opening;
Many many moons ago, when he was a young officer, they were attempting to arrest a bad guy who was just a terror to the neighborhood. The plan was for them to drive by in a U-Haul truck and scoop him up before there was any potential for a shootout. He was the driver. The plan was successful and no one was hurt, although several people called 911 stating the guy was just kidnapped. Once he pulled over, after things settled down, he got out of the truck and went to the back of the truck to check on the guy. When he pulled up the garage styled door the guy said ‘Man, can you pray for me?’
He quickly closed the door.
He thought for a few seconds then opened back the door and asked him what he said.
He said again ‘Can you pray for me?’
The officer said, “Of all these other guys why do you want me to pray for you?” The guy didn’t even know. Anyway he asked him what he wanted him to pray for and the guy said that he and his family would be alright. The officer said, I’ll pray for you, but I’m not closing my eyes. And he prayed.
This was just one of many breadcrumbs that pointed to the call of God on his life and he is actively pursuing it now. It’s a beautiful thing to live a purpose driven life!
We chatted some more, exchanged more ‘God’ stories, shared tips, and encouraged each other on this journey.
And, I had a productive day indeed
Go after that vision and dream that you see, write it down, make it plain and keep it ever before you. Don’t worry about the ‘how’ of it, that’s God’s job….
Have a great week.
When the student is ready, the teacher will appear ~ Buddhist Proverb
Do you believe this? I do.
Since the beginning of this new year I’ve been focused on accomplishing everything that God had in mind when He created me. Using every gift, talent, treasure, my personality, experiences (good and bad), attitude, humor, passions, hobbies….you get the idea. I want to go back to Him empty.
There is a venue that I love to use for my Junk in the Trunk sessions (another post all together) and the price has gone up. I was a little irritated by that so I asked God to let me know if I should even bother. Even though I already knew the answer (I just hadn’t settled it within me).
Well, the other day the clip on the case of my work phone broke. So I went to get a new one from the person that handles our phones. She’s a little lady, very unassuming, with stringy hair and frumpy clothes. I’ve seen her for years heading to her car, head down and going about her life. Never really talked to her and only knew her name by the placard outside her door.
As I stood waiting for her to get the clip, my eyes were drawn to a photo collage on her left wall. One particular photo caught my eye again and again. In the photo was a little dark skinned boy and she was holding a stethoscope to his chest.
As I was standing there God said “Ask her about the photo.”
I was like ‘I don’t want to be all in her business about her photos, I’m just here to get my clip.’
Again God said “Ask her about the photo.”
So I was like “Fine.”
When she bought the clip back I said “Ma’am, that photo with the little boy, where is that?”
And it was like she was waiting for me to ask! She lit up in front of me. She went on to explain that the photo was taken in Jamaica on one of the mission trips that she and her husband go on every year. And they had been doing it for twelve (12) years! She said they go every year for about two weeks. She said the mission field in Jamaica was their heart. The area they go to has no running water and no medical treatments available etc. She said they pack their suitcases to the max and leave everything they bring.
She said at the end of the trips they are told to leave their dirty clothes. She said the first time she didn’t want to leave her dirty clothes for someone else to wash, but once she found out that someone could wash her clothes for money that would enable them to eat for a few weeks, she gladly left them.
One year she said she and several women from her church went and spent the whole two weeks in a room sewing uniforms. It was like Christmas morning delivering the uniforms to the children. She said she even left her sewing machine so someone maybe could start a small business and have a way to feed their family. She said she always has a hard time living in the excess we live in here when she comes back; taking so much for granted.
She told me about so many stories of how God showed Himself on those trips and stopped herself several times to ask me ‘if she was being too personal’. I told her ‘no, I’m right there with you.”
We talked for about 45 minutes and then she said ‘I’ve shared so much and I don’t even know your name.” I told her, but it really didn’t matter.
Anyway I told her about how I was debating about paying the extra to host my sessions and she said “so what are you going to do?”
I told her “You have blessed me, I will confirm the date for my session.”
I am always moved when I see people who find themselves and their ‘thing’ in life and are going after it with gusto. Honestly the extra I had to pay was in no comparison to what it would cost to go to Jamaica, take supplies, take off from work for two (2) weeks etc. When we are on purpose, we throw everything we have behind it.
Have you found your niche in God’s Kingdom? Is it a business, writing a book, studying to be a better teacher, studying to be more versed in His word, finishing that degree, blogging, photography etc? Or just maybe you need to start getting ready because when the opportunity presents itself, there is no time to ‘get ready’ then!
There is something that we all already have in us to give.
Have you become distracted, unfocused and discouraged? Well please be encouraged to know that there are several of our brothers and sisters around us who are living on purpose. And I know that when we ask God to show us who we are, why He made us the way He did, why we had the experiences we did, why certain things anger us and certain things don’t, why we gravitate to help children or elderly or animals or hug trees etc…..He will show us.
Have a great week, and be looking for all the opportunities coming your way!!!