Not My Way….
“From a young age, I learned to be self-reliant. When the adults in my life weren’t there for me, physically or emotionally, I survived by taking care of myself. This character quality was something I prided myself in for a long time because it made me feel strong and capable. When I became a Christian, I learned that God wanted me to trust in and depend on Him.
Surrendering my self-reliance has always been one of the hardest things about my walk with Christ. Unlike Hezekiah when threatened by King Sennacherib or Jehoshaphat when attacked by an army from Edom, it goes against my independent grain to ask God for help before trying to deal with my circumstances first.
Over the years, as God has dealt with various sins in my life, I am always brought back to this theme of self-reliance. My sins are mostly the result of me trying to handle things my way instead of looking to God. Overeating to deal with my stress. Procrastinating because I don’t know where to start. Letting resentment creep in rather than speaking the truth in love to a fellow believer. Every time I realize my sin, I come to the same cross-roads of pride and humility. Will I insist on continuing to do things my way becuase I like taking care of myself and being in control, or will I humble myself to God and admit that His way is better? Thankfully, as I get older, God continues to sanctify me through His power, and I submit to Him more and rely on myself less.”
God, Today I will do things Your way…
I came across this daily devotional sample and I had to put it out here. I couldn’t have said it better myself. For many of us, our independence was a tool of survival. It was equivalent to the chaff that protects the grain. Our independence protected us in relationships, enduring various family dynamics, surviving in the workplace and our professional lives etc. But when we came to God, we had to pass over those reigns to Him. He wants to remove the chaff, that toughness. It is a process of threshing, pressing and sifting. It doesn’t feel good, but the grain/seed that He has planted in us will become visible. This is difficult for some of us and we continually get in the way. We don’t want to give up that control. We still want to have a say in how things go because not having some control makes us vulnerable and uncomfortable. Sometimes we feel as if God is asking too much. He should understand that this is how I am wired and this is what I am used to. Shouldn’t He? Well God does understand, but He wants us to know that His way is ALWAYS better and He doesn’t need our help. He is God.
My life verse, I believe, will always be Proverbs 3:5-8…”Trust in The Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding, in all your ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct your paths…” I am practical and I love information along with a plan A, B and C. Well, as believers we know that God doesn’t work like that! He is the Plan A and there is NO Plan B, C or D. Plus, God is not big on details! Guess what, Faith does not demand details. Truthfully if we had all the details we wouldn’t need faith. And we know the Word says that it is impossible to please God without faith. If we want to please God, we have to show Him that we trust Him and we have faith in His plan for us.
I want to encourage you today. I did not realize when my own independence had become a stumbling block. Yes, it was necessary for survival before God, but now that we have Him, there is no need for independence, just DEPENDENCE on Him! It is a constant process, but it gets easier. The more we surrender the easier it is to accept things God’s way. As a matter of fact, the process is beautiful (even though it doesn’t always feel that way), God is beautiful, following Him is beautiful and it really is relaxing to do things His way. When it doesn’t appear to go right, it is up to Him to fix it. Let’s take it one day at a time and say “God, Today I will do things Your way”.